pushing up daisies

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There are days when the patients don’t make it.

On one occasion, I sat in my director’s office and we rocked in our chairs in unison for a couple of minutes, neither of us saying a word.

All I kept thinking was, “What the fuck just happened?”

After she dropped a few “F” bombs, we looked at each other, then quickly looked away. She was about to cry but I could tell that she didn’t want me to see her in this vulnerable state.

It made me uncomfortable so I got up and left.

I had work to do. Patients were waiting for me.

I didn’t have time to be in my feels. I had to get back to work…

Side note: years ago, we were all encouraged to seek therapy. It was HIGHLY encouraged. My team and I all obliged. In a way, it brought us closer to one another. We can simply give each other a look and we’ll know exactly what that means. And because of our shared trauma and experiences, it has forever bonded us.


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20 responses to “pushing up daisies”

  1. Nicholas K F Matte Avatar

    That is AMAZING Ro!!! Got it, yes!!!

    1. Nicholas K F Matte Avatar

      You do a GREAT JOB RO!!! (Don’t know where you at exactly but you are in a hospital doing AMAZING WORK!!! I’m ALWAYS SO IMPRESSED!!!😄

      1. justrojie Avatar

        thank you, Nico!

  2. rebuilding rob Avatar

    I absolutely cannot imagine what it must feel like losing a patient. I mean, when it’s a person’s time, it’s their time and there’s nothing that any medicine or technology can do to prevent that, but still the feeling of that has to be absolutely gut-wrenching.

    1. justrojie Avatar

      time… it’s def something that money or the best medicines can buy

  3. Edward Ortiz Avatar

    Losing a patient must be devastating and so taxing on mental health. The stories that came out during COVID-19 about how hard it hit the medical community were truly gut-wrenching. Hats off to you and all healthcare workers, you are absolute heroes. Your work often goes unnoticed, but know that many of us deeply appreciate everything you all do.

    1. justrojie Avatar

      thank you, Edward!!

      1. Edward Ortiz Avatar

        You’re so welcome, my friend.

  4. Joe Avatar

    Wow–that’s a big share. Thanks for making me think today.

    1. justrojie Avatar

      yw, Joe!!

  5. Cai Avatar

    Like you said before, you always do your best. The rest is not within your control.

    1. justrojie Avatar

      this is fax

  6. vic5566 Avatar

    utmost respect to u and ur colleagues 🙏

    1. justrojie Avatar

      10-q~~~~

  7. ibarynt Avatar

    I can never comprehend how you all manage the life and death situation you face each day.

    1. justrojie Avatar

      it’s why i disassociate so much

  8. Info-Man Avatar

    That’s so sad 😢

    1. justrojie Avatar

      it is… unfortunately it happens often, the circle of life…

  9. April Avatar

    It is so tough to be in that industry right…

    Kudos to you all! ♥️

    1. justrojie Avatar

      thank you!!

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