lamron: my so called life

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Currently listening to: Normal – BTS

Kerosene, dopamine, chemical-induced
Fantasy and fame, yeah, the things we choose
Show me hate, show me love, make me bulletproof
Yeah, we call this shit normal (Woo-woo)
Run away, out of sight, don’t know what I want
Wish I had a minute just to turn me off
Kerosene, dopamine, what I gotta do?
Yeah, we call this shit normal (Ah-ooh)

If someone followed you for a full day without you knowing, what would surprise them most?

Prompt created by yours truly. 
Feel free to use any prompts for July that I post and/or tag me.
I’d love to read your responses.

A colleague of mine was physically assaulted at work this week. It happens more than people realize—we’re all mandated to do MAB training (management of assaultive behavior).

I heard the screaming first. The patient was posturing and lunging at her. I could see where she was struck on the face. I went to intervene and got her out of there.

I like to de-escalate things from the start. I’m generally passive but from what staff tell me, I have a FAFO aura… mostly because of my flat affect that I’ve spent years training for.

Anyway, the coworker was trembling and tearful. I got her out of the room and then saw the patient with security. I was able to handle it without further incident. And for the rest of the day, my colleague kept hugging me. And I let her.

Another friend of mine, someone I used to work with, is currently out on disability after being attacked by a patient. I didn’t ask for details because I didn’t want to re-traumatize her. I just told her that if she wanted to talk, I’m here. She thanked me and said that she’s not ready to do that right now. That’s fine. Everyone has their own pace when it comes to trauma. I’m well aware of that, considering my childhood.

Outside of that: I work three jobs. Full time, part time, contract-as needed. They’re all different and I like that. I enjoy having a variety otherwise I tend to get bored.

My assistants and I daydream about winning the lotto. We talk about where we’d live and what we’d do (we’re majorly delulu, but a girl’s gotta dream). If I were to live in the states, I’d live at the Four Seasons Private Residence in Minneapolis or Napa, mostly because they are discreet and their customer service is impeccable. Otherwise, I would live in Singapore and travel throughout Asia and Europe extensively. I am in two lotto groups: one friend group buys tickets every couple weeks while another one does it weekly. I’m trying to diversify my odds, dammit.

In between my jobs, I write my blog posts. They are done mostly in advance because of time constraints. I try to answer comments and read other people’s blogs daily or every other day if time permits.

While working, I graze throughout the day. It could be a protein bar, protein shake, string cheese, tea or decaf coffee that goes cold and I drink it anyway, or whatever coworkers bring in for potluck or just because.

During my commute home, I like to listen to music, plan the rest of the day in my head, or in drive in silence. It really depends on the kinda day I am having.

Texting friends back and e-mails are on the back burner. That’s why I have so many messages… it can be overwhelming especially when I don’t have a chance to look at it for days and it starts to pile up. Socials are dead last, sorry but not sorry. I just don’t have the bandwidth sometimes which is why my notifications are turned off.

When I get home, I play with my dog for about 15-30 minutes, administer his meds, and then watch him saunter off to my mom afterward. I’m glad that they have each other because I’d feel so bad if he was home alone for hours on end with no one to be with.

As for exercise, I’ve been slacking. Mostly because of the heat wave and I’ve been running out of steam before the day is over.

I may run errands some days like getting gas, buying groceries, returning Amazon purchases, and going to appointments.

And then I go to sleep for a few hours and then do it all over again.