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“Honey, I can tell when somebody still wants me, come clean…” It’s been a minute since I’ve been to Northern California so of course I had to ask my Big E which airport I should fly into.  San Francisco?  Sacramento?  San Jose?  Oakland? I was told NOT to fly into Oakland because it was quite…

Every day, I get a chance to look into my patients’ lives.  They tell me their life stories.  The good and the bad.  Most often though, it’s the bad because if they were healthy, they wouldn’t need me.  I see them trying to hold on…by a thread. I see a little bit of me in…

“I move through the world with the heartbroken…” When he told me he was moving, my heart sank. It was a sudden blow that left me feeling lost and confused. I had hoped for more time to figure out where our relationship was headed, but it seemed that the universe had other plans. For months,…

Currently listening to: Fortnight by Taylor Swift feat. Post Malone Obsessed w/this song. I am beyond exhausted. I’ve been getting anywhere between 3-4 hours of sleep at a time and to make matters worse, I was sick with a cold the entire time.  In fact, I’m still not feeling 100, but I do what I’ve…

If I don’t post, it’s because I’m traveling.  I’m going to a conference with friends. To be honest, I am not feeling well (physically as I have caught a cold, ugh).  I’m taking everything OTC and hoping that it will push me through.  I’ve been drinking lots of fluids (about 2 quarts) and it’s got…

I love a good supper club and for brunch?  That’s even better.  I received an email from the restaurant stating that they were offering 50% off brunch this weekend and of course, I had to go. I ordered the pepita chilaquiles with carnitas and scrambled eggs.  I do prefer the green sauce over the red…

Friday was quite a shitty day. I woke up with a migraine. The weather looked questionable as to whether it was going to rain or not. When I got into the elevator to go to my unit, a random person came into the elevator, and when I asked her what floor, she looked perplexed.  She…

It’s been 11 days since I had my chemical peel.  There’s this one woman at work who comes by nearly every day to examine my face.  It’s so awkward.  I always feel weird when people stare at me for a long period of time. Are they looking at my flaws?  Do I have something on…

Since my last post was about high school, I’m going to continue this theme.  First off, let’s address my bangs.  WTF?  I can’t believe I was walking around looking like that.  Luckily, it grew out quickly, which made it look better.  Thank God. Living in Minnesota, I always knew I was different than others.  Most…

“Ain’t that funny? It’s been a while since you came around Now you wanna see what’s goin’ down Tryna tell me how you want my time Tryna tell me how I’m on your mind (On your mind) See, it never had to be this way You should’ve never played the games you played Now I’m seein’…

Finally, the swelling in my face and neck seems to be diminishing.  This is probably the most intense chemical peel I’ve done thus far.  When it was happening, the fumes went straight to my right eye and one single tear rolled down my face.  This tear stain has caused my skin to burn even more….

The Tiësto remix is fire too. I’ve got this song on heavy rotation right now.   This is the kinda trance pop/progressive song I would love to listen to while being under the influence. After the clubs, we would either go eat at a 24-hour Korean or Chinese restaurant or go back to our place and…

I’ve done this a few times now and I’ve had good results every time.  It’s almost like getting second-degree burns, it’s more prominent on my neck, which I apply Aquaphor and cover with a scarf to prevent peeling prematurely and hyperpigmentation.  I have a high pain tolerance, for me, it’s a game of how much…

Sometimes, I think about my exes and their wives, girlfriends, or toys. I imagine them all to have someone beautiful because 95% of my exes were good-looking. But I can’t help but wonder if they are smarter than me, how do they look…what are they like? Regardless, I hope they’re all happy. “And all I…

This month is going to get busy for me.  I have a lot of things I have to do.  I’m excited but also feeling overwhelmed.  Such is life, I suppose. My sleep schedule is very erratic, I’m just trying to get as much sleep as possible.  My anemia is acting a fool but I don’t…

I keep coming back to this song.  The lyrics are poetic…le sigh. I’ve been a huge fan of Karol G for a while and this is still one of my favorites. It’s nearly midnight and I just barely finished work.  But to be fair, I did have a five-hour hiatus – I went over to…

See this face?  It’s a face of happiness.  Yesterday, my 동생 gave me a huge loaf of garlic brie sourdough bread that he bought at one of the wineries the other day with his girlfriend. I wasn’t planning on doing anything on Easter other than do chores and study.  But then I asked him what…

Big mood lately.  It vacillates between feeling disgusted, content, apathetic, and exhausted.  I just have so many thoughts swirling in my head. I want to chop off my hair.  It’s annoying me. On a side note, I have many upcoming events that I am really looking forward to.  I have “appointments” with my friends, and…

As a Korean, I can’t help but wonder if the constant pursuit of perfection is ingrained into our culture. It seems like there’s always something that needs fixing or upgrading. From my appearance to my financial status, the list of things to improve upon feels never-ending. When I look at myself, I see a laundry…

I hope karma gets everyone who exploited my good will, who disturbed my peace, and those who wronged me despite my true intentions. Respectfully, Your fav gemini <3  

We would rendezvous in the morning and part ways at night. He took this picture.  We were driving near the Laguna Beach area with the top down.  When it comes to driving, there are few individuals who possess the ability to make their passengers feel like a passenger princess.  He was one of them.  Otherwise,…

Picked up my 동생 (dongseng/younger brother), not by blood, and we went to an AYCE sushi joint.   He literally lives half a mile from me, which makes it convenient. I ate so much sushi that I probably won’t want it again anytime soon.  The quality was mid but they had a huge selection that included…

…and you call me up again just to break me like a promise.  So casually cruel, in the name of being honest.  I’m a crumpled-up piece of paper lying here cause I remember it all too well. Cause there we are again when I loved you so, back before you lost the one real thing…

Me in my Hello Kitty era.  NGL but I still love Hello Kitty but I do prefer Kuromi.  She’s mischievous, edgy, and a bit naughty.  I feel like I can relate to that character more.

Truth be told, I haven’t finished watching the series (BEEF) because I’m all too familiar with K-rage.  For some, there is an inherent feeling of injustice, rage, loss of control, and depression.  But on the flip side, this is where you’ll also find resistance and nationalism.  Much of it probably has to do with the…

Being a perfectionist feels like an albatross around my neck, constantly weighing me down with expectations and self-imposed pressure.  From a young age, I was taught to strive for perfection in every aspect of my life.  I was told what to do.  How to act.  What to wear.  The message was clear: do more, do…

Foofie When I met Foofie’s mother for the first time, it was the beginning of the end.  As soon as we exchanged pleasantries, I could see the pride radiating from her eyes.  She was clearly pleased with her son and herself for raising such a specimen.  Meanwhile, I was standing there, internally mortified, because the…

  I got dressed up to go out to a pop-up event with a friend.  I wore my white rabbit hoodie and crossbody bag.  Everything was so kawaii, I loved it. My mom: *scrutinized my fit* and asked me in Korean, how old are you? Me: “I’m 10” My mom: she laughed.  Then said that…

I had less than fifteen minutes to reach petite morte.  I think I could orgasm in less than five minutes but again, that takes into account that my headspace is clear and I’m in the mood.  If it’s not, then it will be a waste of time.  At any rate, during those thirteen minutes, I…

There are a lot of new people on my blog who are leaving comments.  Love this. And some friends have been faithful readers throughout the years. 사랑해. I love you, bitch.  And I mean that in the best way ever.  Hit me up when you’re done fucking around in NY. *grin*

And for a long period, I was dating men for the story.  One right after another.  I had quite a few men whom I put into the friendzone straight away.  For whatever reason, I just couldn’t.  At certain points, I was juggling between one to five men.  Some lasted only a couple of dates, while…

Play on, player.  

The butterfish was an absolute delight. It was a five-course meal and very educational.  But on top of that, it was a night of conflict and antagonism.  Never in my life have I seen a spectacle such as that amongst professionals.  It was definitely cringe-worthy, people were fucking unhinged as I sat back and wished…

Why do my convos have to be perverted?  I’m on a good one lately… He and I have history together.  Minnesota.  Texas.  California.  Big D’s been around forever.  I’ll have to delve into that another time. Anyway, back to getting glass skin… Big D and I have been on this mission to achieve it.  I…

There are a few things that give me passion. hot sex delicious foods traveling money skincare concupiscent books being with my close circle of friends and family

I hadn’t seen him in years and as soon as he hugged me, that’s when I regretted that we didn’t hang out sooner. He is friends with my ex, Foofie.  After Foofie and I broke up, we would intermittently meet up to go eat or drink.  I’ve seen him through four or five ex-girlfriends and…

Overall, I thought it was a great experience.  Luckily, I had an Asian woman give me tips and guide me on applying makeup differently than I’ve done in the past.  I do think that I will incorporate some of the techniques that I learned, especially if I’m doing a smoky eye look and using a…

I think I need an update or refresh on how I apply my makeup. Things have changed over the years.  Makeup styles have changed and I’m seeing fine lines on my face too.  Ugh.  If there’s a way to enhance my looks with makeup, why shouldn’t I do it?  I mean isn’t that what makeup…

I cannot draw worth shit.  My mom is an artist, she does calligraphy and Korean traditional artwork. I grew up appreciating the arts. Sculptures, paintings, literature, music, theater, architecture.  I loved it all. I dated Zaddy, who made sure I had my dose of the arts whenever we spent time together.  He also drew pictures…

The first and final draft. Next month, I’ll be heading to the Lone Star State, Texas for a conference. It’s a land of wide-open spaces, delicious BBQ, and the potential for unexpected encounters. There’s a small chance that I might accidentally bump into my ex and old roomie while I’m there. And let’s just say,…

I often get compliments from men and women about my lips.  But how much is too much? Also, I need to stop with snaps lolol.

I’m easily influenced.  The Brit aka Beau Mec (yeah, I know it’s French) made the best Yorkshire pudding. I love high tea.  I also love crumpets. I met with one of my besties to have brunch at a cute tea place.  I needed both coffee and a flight of mimosas.  Caffeine to stay awake.  Mimosas…

Years ago, I asked this guy I was conversing with if it was possible to love more than one person. His response was: “If you are asking if there is only one person that will come into your life that you can truly love, I would say no. As we change, so does the love…

He was fluent in Japanese and much younger than me but we didn’t care.  He was trying to learn Korean for me.  It was rather cute but I preferred him to speak in Japanese than in Korean.  He couldn’t get the accent 100%, which bothered me.  I also like how smooth Japanese sounds, it rolls…

I want to say right off the bat, I didn’t like the vibe… I don’t know if it was the attendees or that everything was so laxed?  Or maybe they didn’t have coffee or cafe de olla?  Or maybe all the above? The venue was not really a place where I would have gone on…

I can get wild.  Feral. I can also be hyperfocused and goal-oriented.  And be very sweet. I’m like cryptocurrency.  Turbulent, but never bored. BTW, one of my friends told me to get more crypto, it’s on a massive rise.

Current playlist: Elley Duhé – Middle of the Night John Legend – Tonight (Best You Ever Had) Kenya Grace – Strangers Fiona Apple – Criminal Nelly Furtado – Promiscuous feat. Timbaland Usher – Love in this Club feat. Young Jeezy TLC – Red Light Special I canceled my Spotify but if anyone wants to share…

Let’s be clear.  I never had sex with him…but I knew he wanted to. He pursued me (TBH, I’ve only chased one dude before and that backfired.  I crashed and burned and I never allowed myself to do that again).  Anyway, I digress.  It was the allure of his British accent that drew me in. …

I think about karma a lot—the cause and effect of morality. I’ve done a lot of shitty things in the past and I paid the price for it.  I hope those who did me dirty get theirs.  I would love that for me.   To those who’ve ghosted, backstabbed, or generally brought the vibe down…I’m out…

I’ve been super stressed these days so I’ve been hitting the gym.  I’m trying to make myself mentally and physically stronger.  Each night, I’m there for between 60-90 minutes.  On the upside, it’ll increase my endurance, stamina, and flexibility, which is always a plus for fucking. I’ve been watching a lot of action, crime, noir,…

I’m surrounded by Pisces.  I’ve come to understand them quite well. My friend is no exception. She likes it when I read her texts with dudes so I can interpret them for her…because apparently, I think like a guy.  I think it’s more that IDGAF. Her: I don’t feeeel like he likes me.  LOL.  I…

Remember my friend asking me for advice on her situationship? She reenacted a scene of her last date.  She had told the guy she was dating others but that she felt the most connected with him.  This is when he began to slowly pull away from her and she became frazzled by this because to…

I’m gonna miss that MF.

It’s been a busy weekend already but I was able to slip in some time to do mesotherapy (vitamin C and hyaluronic acid) injections.  With the copious coffee consumption, I feel dehydrated and I can only imagine how my face must feel.  Aside from that, I’m also insecure about my looks. Whenever I take a…

Currently listening to: Forever – 수호 (Suho) He took me out on a date to a new sushi restaurant and I became a monster. There’s something about those eclectic rolls that turns me into a ravenous beast. Watch the fuck out! When it comes to sushi I have an insatiable appetite. Earlier today, my friend…

Before: IDGAF about anything. After: Guilty. There are some things that only a small circle of friends ought to know.

  This pretty much sums up our time in Florida. Traveling with her was a whole new experience. We explored new places, tried new foods, and laughed until it hurt. Men would approach us throughout our time there and let me tell you, she had a way of turning heads wherever we went. Her beauty…