LINK: amor fati
Currently listening to: Dog Days Are Over – Florence + The Machine
And I never wanted anything from you
Except everything you had and what was left after that too, oh
Happiness hit her like a bullet in the back
Struck from a great height by someone who should know better than that
If you could erase one memory, would you? Which one?
I’ve been mulling this over for quite some time. And every time I think about it, I always come back to the same answer: no. I wouldn’t erase one single one. Not even an iota.
It might sound weird since I’ve had a lot of tragedy in my life, but those moments, as painful as they were, are threaded into every fiber of my being. If I were to pull one thread, I don’t know what would unravel with it. Would I have the life that I’m living right now? Would I be here blogging and sharing my personal thoughts with you all? Would you be blogging if things were different?
I think about all the good things in my life… and I know with a certainty, I wouldn’t appreciate them the way I do if I didn’t have to endure difficult and painful losses and delicate moments. And maybe that’s why I try to live my life to the max because I know what loss is and I realize that one day it will all end.
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