end game (rojie’s version)

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Currently listening to: End Game – Taylor Swift feat. Ed Sheeran, Future

I don’t wanna touch you (I don’t wanna be)
Just another ex-love (you don’t wanna see)
I don’t wanna miss you (I don’t wanna miss you)
Like the other girls do
I don’t wanna hurt you (I just wanna be)
Drinkin’ on a beach with (you all over me)
I know what they all say, yeah
But I ain’t tryna play

What’s a risk you’re considering?

Prompt created by yours truly. 
Feel free to use any prompts that I post and/or tag me.
I’d love read your responses.

Every day is full of risks.

My commute is full of risks, especially in California with cars weaving at 70+ mph, people distracted while driving, and accidents happening every minute. Every day I drive, I escape death.

Then there are the stairs. My house has steep stairs and one slight slip… I could end up tumbling down the stairs. At work I go up and down the stairs all day long. There’s always that chance that I could twist my ankle, fracture my foot, or roll down the stairs and meet my maker.

Living in the U.S. right now is a big fat risk. We’re literally in World War III with strikes escalating daily, missiles flying about, leaders being assassinated, civilians dying because they’re collateral damage, and everyone being on high alert.

Tried getting gas today and this was what happened.

Continuing to put money into my 401(k) and stocks is a risk. Since the conflict started, the market has been volatile AF. My portfolio is hemorrhaging an obscene amount of money, that I stopped looking at it… for now. But if it gets 47 out of office, then it’s all fucking worth it.

Playing the lotto is another risk. It could just take one ticket to change my life. But if I don’t play, I can’t win. Which reminds me, I need to get tickets today.

Working in healthcare is a risk. There are no metal detectors at the doors, just security guards patrolling the area intermittently. I’ve undergone lockdowns due to an active shooter before, unhinged patients berating me, my colleagues have been physically assaulted, then there are the bomb threats and baby kidnappings. People don’t think about the workplace violence in healthcare settings but it’s a thing.

Another thing that’s been gnawing at me is whether or not I want to take a leadership position at my secondary job. I told the VP to give me five years for me to make a decision. By that time, I will be vested at my current job and will be able to get a pension when I retire. As much as I love the frontline, I’m getting restless. I’m craving something more… but I have a disdain for office politics, endless meetings, and subordinates who are older than me acting like children. Do I stay in the trenches or make a move and step up?

P.S. don’t let me forget to tell you about the update on 롱다리 (long legs) in a future post.


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16 responses to “end game (rojie’s version)”

  1. SRIKANTH Avatar

    Given everything you’ve already navigating—literal life-and-death commutes, the volatility of a world on edge, the quiet violence of healthcare work—it makes sense that the risk of a leadership role sits differently in your body. It’s not about survival. It’s about want.

    You said it yourself: you’re restless. You’re craving something more. And that craving is its own kind of compass, even when the path forward looks cluttered with politics and petty drama and people who should know better but don’t.

    The five-year timeline you gave the VP is smart—it protects your pension, your vesting, your safety net. But five years is also a long time to wait if your soul is already itchy for the next thing. Maybe the question isn’t whether to step up, but how to start stretching into that role now, in small ways, so that when the time comes, you’re not walking into it cold—you’re walking into something you’ve already been growing toward.

    Also: the line “if it gets 47 out of office, then it’s all fucking worth it” landed. Hard. That kind of hope, threaded through financial hemorrhage and global chaos, is its own kind of courage.

    So here’s my nice comment: You’re already leading. You’re already taking risks bigger than most people could carry. Whatever you decide about that title, about those meetings, about those grown-ups acting like children—you’ll do it with the same sharp awareness that’s keeping you alive on the freeway and steady on the stairs.

    And yes, go get those lotto tickets.

    1. justrojie Avatar

      hah thanks, Srikanth. i hope the lotto gods smile upon me.

      1. SRIKANTH Avatar

        Fingers crossed—hope the luck finally kicks in! 🤞😄

  2. Jesse Pallante Avatar

    The lottery is a risk that a lot of people do. I do it from time to time. It would be amazing to win. Yea definitely weigh out your options, that’s good that you told the boss at your second job to give about five years to think about it. That is good.

    1. justrojie Avatar

      thank you, Jesse! I feel like I need to be really sure lol, hopefully i’ll have an answer then

  3. Jesse Pallante Avatar

    Yes hopefully lol

  4. Nicholas K F Matte Avatar

    Hi Rojie!! Win billions!!! Sounds like you have things planned out, I say ya, take a promotion when your time is right👍if it makes you happy. Stay safe bud!!!😁

    1. justrojie Avatar

      Thank you, Nico!!

  5. Michael Williams Avatar

    we’ve got a lot of things to think about with the unprecedented circumstances now. hopefully, everything will calm down by us getting to the other side of whatever we have to cross. keep up the great work Rojie I enjoy the stream of updates! Mike

    1. justrojie Avatar

      Thanks so much Mike!!

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  7. Jake Avatar

    Just a roll of the dice

  8. Violet Lentz Avatar

    I think this is why I am so contented to be retired and just stay home!

    1. justrojie Avatar

      Yassss that’s what I strive for

  9. Sambuca (✿◠‿◠) Avatar

    I hear of babies being taken right after birth from like strangers/nurses/wrong mothers. Looks like Canada will be dragged into this war alongside the US. This is why I steered away from being Jewish, cos I refuse to take sides. I SUPPORT THE OPPOSITES OF TRUMP AND PUTIN. Peace man. Just like in the 60’s.

    1. justrojie Avatar

      It’s a shit show of epic proportions that’s for sure

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