it’s tricky

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Currently listening to: It’s Tricky – RUN DMC

Thanks, Matt for reminding me of RUN DMC. I discovered this song when it went viral a few years ago on TikTok and IG.

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♬ original sound – Alexandra Karadimas

It’s Tricky to rock a rhyme, to rock a rhyme that’s right on time
It’s Tricky… Tricky (Tricky) Tricky (Tricky) huh!

When I wake up people take up mostly all of my time
I’m not singin’, phone keep ringin’ cos I make up a rhyme
I’m not braggin’, people naggin’ cos they think I’m a star

How are you different when you are going through a rough vs good season in life?

Prompt snagged from: TCMC

Rough Season: This happened when I got promoted to being a director and then again during the onset and peak of the pandemic.

I turn into a completely different mode. I get serious and lock into what needs to get done. My days become a checklist of tasks to complete. Eating no longer becomes enjoyable and I’m reduced to living off protein drinks, water, coffee, gummy bears, white cheddar Cheez-its, and cashews. My sleep becomes even more erratic. I don’t cry or act like I’m falling apart, but my mom says that I’ll grind my teeth at night. Exercise goes out the door and my skin looks like shit. I don’t get irritable, I just become even more quiet. I pull back from conversations because I need all my energy to stay afloat and handle my own shit show. I’m in survival mode. I have friends who like to share their problems verbally or on their socials. I’m more reserved and more inclined to share it on my blog (if I have the time to express myself). I did cut off several dead-end friendships and managed to keep the ones that I felt like I had a true connection with.

And then comes the disconnect, burn out, and health-related fatigue. Life gets tricky…

Good Season: This occurred post-pandemic. Don’t get me wrong, I was doing well before moving on up, but after the COVID-19 era, I’ve learned to be more present, grounded, and very much appreciative of life and others.

I loosen up, I slow down, and I def laugh more. My brain isn’t going fast and furious, so I can actually enjoy things again. I indulge in good food, spontaneous ideas, going out, and of course sex. I’ll pay attention to music, nice meals, the sunlight hitting my skin, engage in conversations with others… I feel present instead of pressured.

I’m trying to live my best life. I’m collecting experiences, not regret.

HBU?


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31 responses to “it’s tricky”

  1. utahan15 Avatar

    sedate and mate i like my serious cold brrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr!

    1. justrojie Avatar

      lol I thought initially it was gonna say sedate and hibernate

      1. utahan15 Avatar

        beautiful dreamer.

        1. justrojie Avatar
          1. utahan15 Avatar

            for your father rip

          2. justrojie Avatar

            Thank youuu!

          3. utahan15 Avatar

            hugs and kisses happy thanksgiving lover!

          4. justrojie Avatar

            Happy thanksgiving!!!🍽 🦃🍁Hope you have a fab day!

          5. utahan15 Avatar

            you too

          6. utahan15 Avatar

            power was is were perhaps

  2. utahan15 Avatar

    perhaps

  3. Nicholas K F Matte Avatar

    RUN DMC, I had a tape? And NEW…..DOUBLE!! Tapedeck that I would play my music on at night on a queen size waterbed under the covers ehm> Rdmc, Brian Adams, ZZTop, were in order lol I remember it’s tricky!! Lol!! Yes. Hip song. 10 years old I think.😂 now I like Dre a bit more, oh, and Aerosmith did a spunky funk MIT der naughty nicht gut kakoi rebels. I don’t know, I feel great!!!!!!

    1. justrojie Avatar

      I like Dre as well!

      1. Nicholas K F Matte Avatar

        UNREAL hey???? Hes in Training Day with Denzel, hes eminems, 50c, snoops etc. mentor, serious beat hey? Gunz n Smoke!!!! GREAT SONG!!!!

        1. justrojie Avatar

          lol I’m not familiar with that song so I’ll have to check it out

  4. Violet Lentz Avatar

    I cannot even begin to imagine the degree of difficulty everyone in your field underwent in addition to all the changes we were all facing during COVID. Thank you for all your extra efforts. And I am happy you were finally able to experience a place of semi-calm following it all.

    1. justrojie Avatar

      Thank you, Violet! It was a very depressing and stressful time. I’m glad that there was a light at the end of the tunnel

  5. ianmdudley Avatar

    Rough: gray hair grayer, grinding teeth, anxiety dreams, unable to sleep or fall back asleep, dreading the start of the workday, imposter syndrome.

    Good: Can’t remember… Well, there are moments, but nothing long enough to be considered a season. I sleep deeply, wake up rested. I’m in a good mood, free of dread and whistling or humming to myself. I smile at small things: flowers blooming, hummingbirds and butterflies above me, the Kiddos laughing at a joke, the Missus smiling at me.

    1. justrojie Avatar

      I hope you have more good days vs rough days

      1. ianmdudley Avatar

        Me too. Sadly, today was not one of them…

        1. justrojie Avatar

          Bummer 😩

  6. ibarynt Avatar

    Your rough is rough… I hope you have more good seasons. And when its rough, remember to rest and eat well. Maybe let your mum cook for you then. Hugs 🤗 🫂

    1. justrojie Avatar

      Thank you, Iba!

  7. harythegr8 Avatar

    This was such a powerful and authentic reflection—your words capture the reality of both rough and good seasons with honesty and grace.
    I love how you described survival mode with such clarity, and then contrasted it with the joy and presence of better days.
    Superb writing, my friend—raw, relatable, and deeply inspiring.

    I’d be honored if you could also visit my blog sometime and share your thoughts there—your perspective would mean so much to me.

    1. justrojie Avatar

      Thanks, Hary!

  8. Jesse Pallante Avatar

    I am glad you are doing better now that COVID ended.

    1. justrojie Avatar

      Thank you, Jesse!!

  9. sambucadarling Avatar

    My brain thinks it’s a bloody NASA X-43, when I am normal (lol) and calm (insert J-hope “What!?” sound effect) but when it really takes off, (caffeine addict here. lolol) x that about a trillion. XD

  10. Info-Man Avatar

    The warmth of sunlight hitting on skin feels good , and maybe I am going through mix of rough and good seasons ,it’s not always the same …… maybe that is what life is 🤔. Maybe I am collecting regrets , btw that word …….’regret ‘ it always makes me stop and think about life and past .

    1. justrojie Avatar

      Lots of things to regret but also even more things to look forward to

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