LINK: ruin the friendship (rojie’s version)
Currently listening to: Ruin the Friendship – Taylor Swift
My advice is always ruin the friendship
Better that than regret it for all time
Should’ve kissed you anyway
And my advice is always answer the question
Better that than to ask it all your life
Should’ve kissed you anyway
I’ve never put a guy I was interested into the friend zone. My friends have and I always thought it was rather… risky? Like doesn’t that send mixed signals? How am I going to tell a guy he’s “like a brother” and then expect him to see me as girlfriend material later?
If I find someone attractive, I either go in or step back completely. If an attractive guy ever put me in the friend zone or worse, the sister zone, I’d never pursue him again. That would be it. Game over.
I’m pretty shy when it comes to men I really like. I hate the idea of being rejected, or worse… of embarrassing myself.
And that’s exactly what happened. Once. Back in the dorms, I went after this guy I thought was extremely handsome. A friend of mine told me that he broke up with his girlfriend and I thought, “now’s my chance”. I called him after getting his number from a friend of a friend. He wasn’t interested at all. And to make matters worse, he told me that he and Yolanda were back together. I wanted to melt into the ground when he told me that over the phone. It was even more awkward when Yolanda found out about my call and we all lived in the same dormitory and would frequently bump into each other. Whenever I saw them heading towards my general direction, I would do my best to avoid them and make my way to a different pathway to class. That’s when I vowed to never chase a guy again.
Sometimes we talk about what’s living rent free in our minds. Jessica’s happens to be about a man who slipped through her fingers. Now, he’s an intrusive thought that pops into her brain relentlessly. Uninvited. How rude.
People come and go.
Like the ocean tides coming to and fro.
Regrets, bitterness, and heartache.
Questioning how much more a person can take.
Maybe in the next life, they will find each other again…
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