who am i?

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How would you describe yourself to someone?

I’m an INTJ-T (introverted, intuitive, thinking, judging traits and turbulent).  Most of my colleagues will tell you that I’m even keeled and that nothing seems to faze me.

I recall there was an active shooter on campus at work a couple of times and when we were under lockdown, I was nonchalant about it.  I tend not to worry about those types of things because it’s out of my control.  I can only focus on what I am going to do, which was to grab my bag, sprint down the back stairs, and run out into the side of the facility.  I fear that most of my colleagues would freeze with the deer in the headlights kind of gaze.  I told my assistants what my plan was in the event the unit became infiltrated.  They looked at me with their eyes wide opened and mouths ajar.  I said that I would not be waiting for them and if they wanted to go with me, then they were going to have to keep up.  I wasn’t trying to be a bitch… just trying to survive.

I’m shy and often times low-key. Writing is a way for me to voice my thoughts in a loud manner but if you were to meet me in the flesh, you’d see that I’m very much an introvert. Now… if you give me a few drinks, then I have the potential to become the most ratchet thing you’ve ever laid eyes on. Almost 99% of my exes have been extrovert show boats. It’s the yin to my yang I suppose? But then again, maybe that’s why they are my exes.

I value alone time more than being with others.  If I am out with others, I tend to lean towards those who are intellectual or have a flair for the arts.  I am a fucking nerd.  What can I say?

I love being stimulated… mentally and physically. Trust me, I can be very naughty, sensual/seductive/sexual, and curious too. I will try almost anything at least once. I strive to have as much fun and to be as adventurous as I can because everything can’t always be serious.  What kind of life would that be?  Work hard, play hard, seems to fit the bill for me.

I’m hyper independent but that’s because it’s just how it was growing up with parents who could barely spoke English when they immigrated.  I have been the daughter, free babysitter for my brother, and somewhat competent translator for my parents since I was in grade school.  I didn’t have the support or guidance that the other kids had growing up.  I had to find my own way.

I’m very determined.  I’m the kind of person that thinks, “If there’s a will, there’s a way.”  I have a lot of goals for myself and strive to do my very best for each of them.  This in turn makes me extremely critical over myself.  I am my worst critic.  But with others, I show an exorbitant amount of empathy…