trust the process

LINK: trust the process

Currently listening to: Summertime Sadness – Lana Del Rey

Oh my God, I feel it in the air
Telephone wires above are sizzlin’ like a snare
Honey, I’m on fire, I feel it everywhere
Nothin’ scares me anymore (one, two, three, four)

What is an emotion that you are not comfortable with?

Prompt created by yours truly. 
Feel free to use any prompts for October that I post and/or tag me.
I’d love to read your responses

Me. Even if I’m feeling some type of way, I have to suppress it because I don’t have time to deal with it especially while I’m a work. I dissociate and sometimes I deal with it later, sometimes I don’t.

Oh, I could make a list of these emotions:

  • vulnerable
  • stupid
  • needy
  • scared
  • grief
  • guilty
  • shame
  • sadness
  • dejected
  • unprepared
  • helpless
  • regret
  • dread
  • embarrassment
  • disappointment
  • disgust

During these times, I like being alone so I can stew in my thoughts. Round and round I go and ruminate in my thoughts. I think about all the things that I did wrong and what I could have done better. I often internalize blame and/or practice self-criticism. I blame this on how I was raised, not just by my parents but also because of the Korean ways (collectivist social values, high societal expectations, historical pressures for survival and reputation management). I tell myself to trust the process or I try to reframe it as a lesson that I needed to learn.

And when I’m deep in my feels, I tend to listen to:

  • Billie Eilish
  • Lana Del Rey
  • Morrissey
  • Taylor Swift
  • The Cranberries

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28 responses to “trust the process”

  1. Hazel Avatar

    Ah, these emotions! We all do. Hugs, Rojie. I hope you enjoy coffee the dog when you feel down.

    1. justrojie Avatar

      thank you, Hazel!!

      1. Hazel Avatar

        You’re welcome always, Rojie

  2. Jesse Pallante Avatar

    The cranberries are awesome 👌. Zombie, you can definitely ruminate to that song.

    1. justrojie Avatar

      for sure! i used to listen to the cranberries nonstop for a while

  3. Nicholas K F Matte Avatar

    I think of Miles Davis stuff when I weigh this post like on Kind of Blue like Blue in Green
    https://youtu.be/TLDflhhdPCg?si=mZBAZp8pqu4LlrHZ 🙌🙌🙌🫶😁

    1. justrojie Avatar

      ah cool song, thank you, Nico!

      1. Nicholas K F Matte Avatar

        Hiiii!!! Je vous en prie, mon ami.😄🎶🎶🎶🎶🎺

  4. Cai Avatar

    The list contains many negative emotions. You wrote before about trying your best always. Maybe you can try to be kind to yourself.

    1. justrojie Avatar

      i’m trying… those negative emotions don’t happen often but when it does, it hits hard

  5. Hug in a bite Avatar

    When I go through such times I do like being alone and enjoy listening to five finger death punch, three days grace and some other rock bands, but those are my favorites. And yes you’re right being raised even here in Lebanon urges you to hide your feelings in front of others and learning to deal with that on your own.

    1. justrojie Avatar

      well it is comforting knowing that it’s not just me and there are other cultures/countries who endure the same types of things

  6. Sammi Avatar

    저를 포함한 우리 모두가 당신에게 정말 감사하고 있다는 걸 알아주셨으면 해요. ♥

    1. justrojie Avatar

      tysm, Sammi :>

  7. mylittlehawk Avatar
    mylittlehawk

    i relate to liking to be alone to deal with my feelings. actually, i think i just don’t feel safe being vulnerable around others. also due to how i was raised and the balkan ways. i feel like there’s a huge void there that i try to run from.
    the cranberries!! heart eyes!!

    1. justrojie Avatar

      yassss the cranberries 4 lyf~~

      1. mylittlehawk Avatar
        mylittlehawk

        !!!

  8. April Avatar

    The spectrum of emotions that toss inside each heads is everything haha..

    1. justrojie Avatar

      it’s getting tossed like a salad lol

  9. Michael Williams Avatar

    you know, Lana Del Ray has quietly built up a generational run and legacy. I’m all for it! Mike

    1. justrojie Avatar

      yeah!! i started listening to her over a decade ago and her songs still slap

  10. ianmdudley Avatar

    I’m a private person, so I don’t like and try to avoid expressing any emotions around strangers or colleagues.

    Except anger and frustration.

    My colleagues are getting a lot of that lately…

    I’m a little more open with friends and family, sometimes to the point of venting to spare the rest of the world, but even with family, I keep my emotional cards close to my chest.

    Aside from love. I make sure every day my loved ones know I love them.

    But not at work.

    HR told me to knock that off.

    1. justrojie Avatar

      HR shakes fist

  11. charles131 Avatar

    Speak Life

    I am indestructible, because of eternal life, which is at work in me! No weapon by whatever name it is called, and in whatever form it may take, fashioned against me shall prosper! No sickness, no infirmity can fasten itself to my body! I am more than a conqueror and I live in dominion over all the forces of darkness!

    I have received the very life and nature of God, I declare that I am superior to satan and all the cohorts of hell! I am a victor in this life! Success is mine! Divine health is mine! Victory is mine in the Name of Jesus! I know who I am! I’m a child of God, an heir of God and a joint-heir with Christ. Thank you Jesus! All the Glory to Our Ever Loving & Merciful God!Hallelujahhhhh

    I have received the Son of God, I am born again, and so I declare that I have the life of God in me. I have received into my spirit, eternal life, the very life of God. This life is working in my spirit, my soul and my body. This eternal life permeates every cell of my blood, causing me to be impregnable to any kind of blood infection, and all manner of sickness and disease!

  12. ChibiChonk Avatar

    Disappointment. That’s one I didn’t consider when I wrote about this topic. I’m not friends with that emotion, either.

    1. justrojie Avatar

      that feeling def gives me the ick

  13. ibarynt Avatar

    Except with my family who receive all my anger and frustration, I’m the coolest person around 🤣

    1. justrojie Avatar

      i think you’re pretty cool!!

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