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Playing: No More Drama – Charlie Puth Beau Mec and I were at the bar, minding our own business, having a drink, when all the sudden an Indian couple came and sat next to us.  Ugh.  Why?  There were plenty of other seats elsewhere.  Couldn’t they sit over there instead? I began feeling uncomfortable with…

My friend and I have different definitions when it comes to fucking around in the flesh. Maybe I have my walls up too high…and I don’t require as much physical touch as she does, although every once in a while I do crave being hugged tightly. It sucks catching feelings when you don’t want to…

I need help. I haven’t bought clothes in forever and I need new fits. This store keeps showing up on my feed so I think I’ll give it a try but there are so many cute outfits that I can’t pick. The reviews say the quality is okay, better than fast fashion stores, and the…

In heavy rotation: You’re on Your Own, Kid – Taylor Swift Lots of things are going on right now so let’s get into it: I’m tired of this demure shit, it’s gotten me nowhere and the ratchet in me is waiting to come out.  I am annoying myself with this sad sack emo nonsense that…

Currently listening to: Cry – Cigarettes After Sex It’s making you cry every time You give your love to me this way Saying you’d wait for me to stay I know it hurts you We started our journey together in Minnesota.  From there on out, whenever I moved…he moved.  For three states, this went on. …

Currently listening to: We Didn’t Start the Fire – Fall Out Boy Trump gets impeached twice, Polar bears got no ice Fyre Fest, Black Parade, Michael Phelps, Y2K Boris Johnson, Brexit, Kanye West and Taylor Swift Stranger Things, Tiger King, Ever Given, Suez We didn’t start the fire It was always burning since the world’s…

From a few years ago. We look absolutely ridiculous. We decided to be zombies because we were dead inside. My friends recommended that I be a zombie cat cause I’m skittish around people. I’d love nothing more than to hide and sleep. If you’re nice and patient with me, I might let you touch me…depending…

Currently listening to: Cinnamon Girl – Lana Del Rey There’s things I wanna talk about But better not to give But if you hold me without hurting me You’ll be the first who ever did After dinner, he followed me home. I was too tired to take a shower.  Instead, I changed into my pajamas…

Currently listening to: everything i wanted – Billie Eilish Coulda been a nightmareBut it felt like they were right thereAnd it feels like yesterday was a year agoBut I don’t wanna let anybody know‘Cause everybody wants something from me nowAnd I don’t wanna let ’em down Here’s the overthinking in me.  As I was compiling…

Currently listening to: The Way I am – Eminem ‘Cause I am whatever you say I am If I wasn’t, then why would I say I am? In the paper, the news, every day I am Ha, I don’t know, that’s just the way I am Reflections by Iba tagged me in this WP game. …

Currently listening to: Last Night – Morgan Wallen Might try to sing this at the NRB. Started with a nice little earthquake in the morning and then the group chats started popping off. Then it was non-stop work and meetings. Got the flu shot. Drink protein shake #1. Slept in my car during my lunch…

Currently listening to: I’m A Slave 4 U – Britney Spears I have this love-hate relationship with the gym.  Whenever I go, I usually sign up for the whatever classes aren’t full or spend an hour or more doing cardio.  But that isn’t helping with the fatness that’s going on my hips, thighs, core, and…

I didn’t watch the debate. I stopped watching the news a long time ago. The fires are growing and it’s not contained at all. My phone was going off nonstop from friends and fam. I found it to be hella annoying to me so I actually turned my phone off and watched Furiosa instead. I…

Fuck these fires that are going on in SoCal. My friends keep texting me about the progress of the fires. It’s burned over 8500 acres and it’s slowly inching its way closer to me and my friends. I hope the firefighters get it contained soon… And Rae (an outlier of the group) who asked me…

Mood: wistful Currently listening to: feel like shit – Tate McRae Oh, I won’t lie, I thought I might dieI couldn’t even sleep at allAnd maybe I’ll get used to it (ah, ah)But right now I just feel like shit (ah, ah) Just a few questions, if you have the answers, I’d greatly appreciate it:…

Sometimes we talk about what’s living rent free in our minds.  Hers happens to be about a man who slipped through her fingers.  Now, he’s an intrusive thought that pops into her brain relentlessly.  Uninvited.  How rude. People come and go. Like the ocean tides coming to and fro. Regrets, bitterness, and heartache. Questioning how…

Currently listening to: How Did it End? – Taylor Swift Say it once again with feeling How the death rattle breathing Silenced as the soul was leaving The deflation of our dreaming Leaving me bereft and reeling My beloved ghost and me Sitting in a tree D-Y-I-N-G Several months passed and Zaddy and I were…

I am guilty of this.  There’s nothing worse than a good looking man who speaks unintelligibly. I’m extremely attracted to highly intelligent men.  Men who are well read, articulate, have sensitive intelligence, motivated, and are polished….fuck, I think it’s sexy AF. But I think most women do too. During the tenth grade in high school,…

Currently listening to: When You’re Gone – Avril Lavigne When you’re gone The pieces of my heart are missin’ you And when you’re gone The face I came to know is missin’ too Two days had passed since the meeting with my dad’s healthcare team. My brother and I were not on speaking terms.  He…

Currently listening to: loml – Taylor Swift For whatever reason, I had this song on an hour loop while driving to work.  The lyrics sank in and every time I heard the words over and over, I could feel an overwhelming feeling of sadness.  Before I knew it, I found myself bawling like a little…

Currently listening to: Tally – Blackpink I say “fuck it” when I feel it ‘Cause no one’s keeping tally, I do what I want with who I like I ain’t gon’ conceal it While you talking all that shit, I’ll be getting mine, getting mine   Being Korean is one of the hardest things I…

Currently listening to: Forever – Suho Lead me to the way towards you I’ve been waitin’ for so long I’m ready to run to you I’m probably the worst person to get relationship advice from but people frequently want to talk about it with me. Why?  IDK but bless their little hearts.  Now imagine me…

Currently listening to: Stan – Eminem feat. Dido My tea’s gone cold, I’m wondering why IGot out of bed at allThe morning rain clouds up my windowAnd I can’t see at all The other day, I was cleaning my bathroom, it instantly reminded me of Tae.  He was a major league Stan. We are both…

I woke up to find a text from Beau Mec.  He told me about his latest move.  Then it dawned on me that I never followed up and finished writing about “us”. Currently listening to: The Tortured Poets Department – Taylor Swift No-fucking-body (Who’s gonna hold you? Who’s gonna hold you?) Nobody (Who’s gonna hold…

I’m in several group chats with various girlfriends. Some of the main characters overlap in the chats. Most of the time, we’re typing shit to each other or catching up in life. We don’t take offense to what’s being written.  We trash talk consistently. We’re just being ridiculous and having a good time. Nothing but…

There’s a lot going on right now: looking at flights to the big island, the audacity of Hawaiian airlines sending me emails full of deals. My mind is not on work. I got summoned for jury duty.  I hope I catch a case…for once.  I go every time, hoping that I will get a big…

Currently listening to: I Can Do It With a Broken Heart – Taylor Swift ‘Cause I’m a real tough kid, I can handle my shitThey said, “Babe, you gotta fake it ’til you make it” and I didLights, camera, bitch smile, even when you wanna die Me: Would it be okay if I was the…

One of my male friends was complaining about how he’s unable to find a suitable partner.  I think it’s mostly because he is very conservative and his political views can be a turn off to many females.  He is a short king, he doesn’t clear six feet but he has other redeeming qualities.  He is…

Currently listening to: Apocalypse – Cigarettes After Sex Kisses on the foreheads of the loversWrapped in your arms You’ve been hiding them in hollowed out pianosLeft in the dark Got the music in you, babyTell me why As much as I love getting fucked stupid with my eyes rolling back into my head as if…

“ㅋㅋ 바쁘신사봐여.. 답이 없으셔. TT.T” He’s straight off the boat…I mean the 비행기. He’s a doctor. He’s nothing like the k-dramas though. Yes, he’s full of compliments and is kind, I suppose. He’s tall and average looking. On paper, he’s every Korean parent’s wet dream. But it doesn’t feel…natural. Something is missing. Maybe, Korean dramas…

Currently listening to: Zombie – The Cranberries Days turned into weeks.  Weeks turned into nearly a month.  I spent most of my days at the hospital living in the waiting room or in my dad’s room in the ICU.  My mom and I alternated where we slept while my brother took care of the logistics…

Currently listening to: On My Way – Alan Walker, Sabrina Carpenter, & Farruko So then, when I’m finished I’m all ’bout my business and ready to save the world I’m taking my misery, make it my bitch Can’t be everyone’s favorite girl I have a lot of male friends.  A lot.  More than any one…

Current listening to: My Humps – The Black Eyed Peas The running joke amongst my male friends is about my ass.  I’ve got ass for days, which is unusual for most Asian females who have an extended back. I’ve had a few female friends ask if I’ve gotten a BBL.  Nah, I would have preferred…

Currently listening to: everything i wanted – Billie Eilish I don’t remember what happened after we landed in MSP.  Nor do I recall how we got to the hospital…I sincerely believe I disassociated at that moment. We located the ICU and found my dad’s room.  It was dark and the machines were rhythmically beeping.  I…

Currently listening to: Ode to My Family – Cranberries My parents were at a friend’s house when he felt blood uncontrollably spilling out of his rectum.  Their friends immediately drove them to the nearest emergency department in the city.  Surprisingly, my dad walked through the doors and was quickly admitted.  They prepped him for a…

I have 620 hours of sick time. I wish I could roll it into my vacation bucket but unfortunately, they won’t let me. I rarely get sick. At most once a year? Earlier this year I had bronchitis, last year I had laryngitis, and before that it was in 2018 when I had a migraine…

Currently listening to: Paparazzi – Lady Gaga I feel like I live in two worlds.  The yin to my yang.  Gemini (twins in Latin). Minnesota, where things are slower paced and people are living in the moment.  Things are almost too chill and possibly borderline boring?  Take that hour long lunch and stare into the…

Currently listening to: Ex-Girlfriend – No Doubt We keep repeating mistakes for souvenirs And we’ve been in between the days and years And I know that when I see you I’m going to die I know I’m going to want you and you know why It’s going to kill me to see you with the…

We were getting ready to go to First Ave for Halloween but I didn’t have a costume so one of my neighbors in the dorm gave me one her work fits to wear.  She was a waitress/model.  I put on the clothes and obviously, she looked much better in it than I did since she…

In California, I’m not short by any means. For a female, I’d say I’m about average height, slightly over 5’6”. Most of the men are around 5’10” – 6’ on average in California. In Minnesota, I’m short AF. The Vikings here are pushing 6’3” – 6’5”. I often think about what it would be like…

Currently listening to: Coming Home: Diddy feat. Skylar Grey This is where I’ve been staying since Wednesday. As much as I love California, Minnesota has my heart. It’s gonna be a busy week. I wonder if I’ll have time for sex world? It’s been a minute since I’ve been there…

Currently binging: The Umbrella Academy, Season 4 I opted out of going to the concert on Sunday, I woke up and my body said, “Fuck you.”  I gave my friend my ticket so she could take someone else.  She offered to pay me back but I told her that I’d rather have someone enjoy it…

Currently watching: The Umbrella Academy, Season 4 My friend sent me a link to Felix (from SKZ) doing 애교 (the act of being overly cutesy) for the cam and it reminded me of a time when one of my male friends asked me if I did 애교.  Obviously, I did.  I mean I am Korean…

Currently listening to: Loungin – LL COOL J So see the moral of the story is a woman need loveThe kind you so-called players never dreamed ofYou gotta try love, can’t buy loveIf you play your hand then it’s bye-bye love I like to focus on peoples’ strengths (to my detriment, but who wants that…

Currently listening to: Big Energy – Latto Today’s been such a weird day. I’ve had two job offers in less than two hours, none of which I inquired about. I’m still on the fence on whether I jump ship or stay put.  I’ve been flirting with the idea of changing specialties or seeing what’s out…

Currently listening to:  Back from the dead – Skylar Grey feat. Big Sean and Travis Barker “I held the funeral the day you left, A black umbrella and a sad song in my head, Buried your pictures that I loved the most, ‘Cause if you survived me I just didn’t wanna know, So you can’t…

There’s a lot going on these days. I’ve been invited to go with a group of friends to Guadalajara for Mundial in 2026.  Might also take the infamous tequila train. Finally. We’ll see how fucked up we get.  But honestly, I feel like my español gets better when I’m inebriated. I can’t wait for the…

Currently listening to: Guess – Charli xcx feat. Billie Eilish This will be the first and only time I write about anything remote about politics.   When I heard that Biden stepped down, I’m NGL, I let out a sigh of relief.  It was like watching two geriatrics battling it out in the dementia ward.   This…

Currently listening to: That’s Hilarious – Charlie Puth “You took away a year Of my fuckin’ life and I can’t get it back no more So when I see those tears Comin’ out your eyes, I hope it’s me they’re for You didn’t love when you had me But now you need me so badly…

Currently listening to: Like a Prayer – Madonna Watched Deadpool & Wolverine this morning.  Again.  I’m convinced that Hugh Jackman (at age 55 yrs old) is the perfect specimen.  Might have to watch it for the third time… I might be slightly obsessed…he is the ultimate Zaddy.  Fuck… It’s bestie’s birthday in a couple of…