LINK: the forgotten
“There’s just no rhyme or reasonOnly the sense of completionAnd in your eyesI see the missing pieces I’m searching forI think I’ve found my way homeI know that it might soundMore than a little crazy but I believe”
The scene (prelude):
Winter semester. Tons of snow falling and it’s -10 degrees Fahrenheit. I am living in the tundra.
I was at uni when I started talking to Kwon. I honestly wasn’t looking for anything serious. I just wanted to have some fun. I was getting cabin fever and tired of studying all the time.
Enter Kwon (interlude):
He was definitely a mistake and he was a blip on my radar. To be honest, I can’t even remember how we started talking but he recently moved nearby due to a new job.
We were flirting heavily at the beginning stage, which in hindsight was very out of character for me because I was physically not attracted to him. He was much older than me (less of an age difference between me and Zaddy, but he was quite a few years older) and even though he was Korean, he looked hella… old. He had a fit body but his face especially, despite his piercings and tats, looked as if he had aged considerably. He didn’t use illicit substances and he rarely drank. Maybe he had a hard life or got the short end of the Asian genetics?
A few weeks after we met in person, he sent me lyrics to a song and said that was how he felt about me. He played the song over and over, on repeat for hours. I was his dream girl… but he wasn’t my dream man. He was divorced and had a young daughter. I wasn’t trying to be a stepmother to anyone, after all, I was still young, in undergrad, and to be frank… immature.
As his feelings grew for me over time, I fell out of “like” with him. We had a wondrous time together but this situationship had an expiration date and it was long overdue. I told him on several occasions that I no longer wanted to be with him, but he would laugh it off and joke that I was still a baby and I didn’t know what I was talking about.
Exit Kwon (postlude):
I didn’t like how he was condescending towards me and I finally did what I usually do. I blocked him. Period. I even moved multiple times because I knew he would try to look for me.
It was as if I never existed…a figment of his imagination.
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