Currently listening to: Numb – Linkin Park
Can’t you see that you’re smothering me?Holding too tightly, afraid to lose control‘Cause everything that you thought I would beHas fallen apart right in front of you
Every step that I take is another mistake to you(Caught in the undertow, just caught in the undertow)And every second I waste is more than I can take
I’ve become so numb, I can’t feel you thereBecome so tired, so much more awareI’m becoming this, all I want to doIs be more like me and be less like you
I heavily dislike the new singer for Linkin Park, Emily Armstrong, singing their old songs. I feel like those are songs that only Chester could sing…IMHO.
The past week, I’ve been waking up to migraines every day. I’ve been popping Ibuprofen and Acetaminophen to alleviate the pain on the daily. Every time I open and close my mouth, it causes joint inflammation when then leads to swelling in the sinuses and making me sound congested with a stuffy nose. Ugh.
I’ve started grinding my teeth again while I sleep, because I stopped the botox treatments for my TMJ six months ago. Years ago, my mom said that she could hear my bruxism and said the sound was absolutely disgusting. Thanks mom.
When I went to the dentist, I was ordered a mouth guard which cost $600 because it was custom. I tried the generic over the counter ones and they didn’t last long. I was going through them like it was nothing. He asked me if I was under stress. I snorted. Stress. Everyone has stress. But being a perfectionist takes it to another level. I have unrealistic demands that I put on myself and when I fail them because it’s unrealistic, I am extremely hard on myself. This is from my mom, she expected perfection ever since I was a child and it’s been my life since then.
Workaholic? Check.
Analytical? Of course I can dissect every bit of information and come up with several different possible conclusions as if I were Dr. Strange.
Attention to detail? Yes, very much so.
Analytical? Of course I can dissect every bit of information and come up with several different possible conclusions as if I were Dr. Strange.
Attention to detail? Yes, very much so.
These have all served me well at school and work and it propelled me into my current positions. Unfortunately, has its downfalls and I’m working on it…till then, I need to either go back to my botox treatments, stop my daily cup of coffee, or more yoga/meditation because I cracked my custom mouth guard. FML.
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