Currently listening to: Forever – Suho
Lead me to the way towards you
I’ve been waitin’ for so long
I’m ready to run to you
I’m probably the worst person to get relationship advice from but people frequently want to talk about it with me. Why? IDK but bless their little hearts. Now imagine me saying that with a Texas twang. It’s laughable. I can do so many accents that it’s rather fun for me.
I digress…I try to be pragmatic about things. I don’t expect too much because doing that will only get me disappointed…and I hate being disappointed. I tend to go with the flow. Maybe this is setting the bar too low? I also realize there are a lot of things that I cannot control…and I freely accept that I can only control myself.
In the past, I would perseverate quite a bit and ask me where it got me. A one-way admission to the hospital for a bleeding ulcer. Being a perfectionist nearly killed me. I couldn’t relax because I was busy replaying the entire day in my head, wondering if I executed things flawlessly or not. After that incident, I learned to let things go…sometimes a little too easily. Over time, I realized IDGAF about a lot of things. If there’s something I feel passionately about, I’ll say what I need to say or if someone asks me a questions, I’ll do my best to answer it.
Anyway, she was upset because the dude didn’t walk her to her car when the date ended. Hmm…I couldn’t understand why she was so distressed about this. I didn’t think it was a big fucking deal personally. I asked a few of my male friends if they walk their dates to their cars afterward. They do, I was impressed.  Personally, I would prefer the guy not to walk me to my car. He doesn’t need to see my whip. Periodt. I can text him (with my Google number) when I get home to let him know I made it home alive.
She and I have had this conversation many times. There have been instances when I’ll DM her my response and she’ll ghost me because she felt a certain way about what I wrote. Either she is processing what I wrote or she was mad AF with my choice of words. I let her figure it out because it’s her life. I can’t do it for her. I will say though that she does have A LOT of love to give…hopefully she will persevere. It won’t be easy though but I have faith that she’ll find someone who will be a lot of the things on her “what I want in my significant other checklist”.
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