the old rojie can’t come to the phone rn

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What’s a song that you can relate to?

Prompt created by yours truly. 
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Look What You Made Me Do – Taylor Swift

I don’t like your little games
Don’t like your tilted stage
The role you made me play of the fool
No, I don’t like you

I don’t like your perfect crime
How you laugh when you lie
You said the gun was mine
Isn’t cool, no, I don’t like you (oh)

But I got smarter, I got harder in the nick of time
Honey, I rose up from the dead, I do it all the time
I got a list of names, and yours is in red, underlined
I check it once, then I check it twice, oh

Ooh, look what you made me do
Look what you made me do
Look what you just made me do
Look what you just made me-

Ooh, look what you made me do
Look what you made me do
Look what you just made me do
Look what you just made me do

I (I) don’t (don’t) like your kingdom keys (keys)
They (they) once belonged to me (me)
You (you) asked me for a place to sleep
Locked me out and threw a feast (what?)

The world moves on, another day another drama, drama
But not for me, not for me, all I think about is karma
And then the world moves on, but one thing’s for sure
Maybe I got mine, but you’ll all get yours

But I got smarter, I got harder in the nick of time (nick of time)
Honey, I rose up from the dead, I do it all the time (I do it all the time)
I got a list of names, and yours is in red, underlined
I check it once, then I check it twice, oh

Ooh, look what you made me do
Look what you made me do
Look what you just made me do
Look what you just made me-

Ooh, look what you made me do
Look what you made me do
Look what you just made me do
Look what you just made me do

I don’t trust nobody and nobody trusts me
I’ll be the actress starring in your bad dreams
I don’t trust nobody and nobody trusts me
I’ll be the actress starring in your bad dreams

I don’t trust nobody and nobody trusts me
I’ll be the actress starring in your bad dreams
I don’t trust nobody and nobody trusts me
I’ll be the actress starring in your bad dreams

I’m sorry, the old Taylor can’t come to the phone right now
Why? Oh, ’cause she’s dead (oh)

Ooh, look what you made me do
Look what you made me do
Look what you just made me do
Look what you just made me-

I think about this song whenever I remember some of the awful exes I’ve had—especially Mister. Yup, he’s the one who would do a line, then go into the bathroom to fight with himself, and punch the bathroom mirror. He also had a DUI and guess who was driving him to his mandatory AA meetings? Me. I thought I could “fix” him…

When we broke up and he left California to move back to the East Coast, it felt like I was left standing in the wreckage that I called my life. I had to gather up the scattered pieces of myself and figure out who I was without him, who I wanted to be, and how I was going to do that.

This also happens whenever I move, get a new job, have a falling out with my friends, endure a traumatic event, or simply get tired of the same ole shit.

Little by little, I shed that version of myself and reinvent myself… hopefully an upgrade. I become more invested in myself, build stronger bonds with friends and certain family members, travel more frequently, become more open-minded about new experiences, and learn how to be okay by myself.