if he really wanted to, he would

I think about it quite often.  “If he really wanted to, he would.”

I had a conversation with a friend of mine who recently broke up with her boyfriend.  She told me all the things he didn’t do but promised to do…and my response was, “If he really wanted to, he would.”

And the truth of the matter is, this is actually true.  Is it not?  I mean within reason.  Le sigh.  I’ve grown weary and wary of the empty promises and stopped reading too much into what’s been said or typed.  Actions speak louder than words.

Ask me how many times, I’ve heard a bunch of bullshit from people that it’s laughable, to be honest.  I can’t believe how naive I was.

I’d have more respect for someone who was honest and said, “I don’t know what lies ahead for us but for the time we have, let’s make it memorable” or “I’m not looking for anything long-term, just fun.”

When I say blandishments, I truly mean it.  I may regret saying it later and wish that I had kept it to myself because I completely embarrassed myself and showed all my cards too early in the relationship…but sometimes, I get impulsive and easily excited that I’m unable to hold back my feelings.

Anyway, I digress.  When I said what I said to my friend, she looked at me with dismay.  I think I hit a nerve…or two as she slowly nodded.