And for a long period, I was dating men for the story. One right after another. I had quite a few men whom I put into the friendzone straight away. For whatever reason, I just couldn’t. At certain points, I was juggling between one to five men. Some lasted only a couple of dates, while others had a bit of a longer shelf life. I was absolutely bored and wondered if any of them could create a spark. Make me feel alive again. I wondered if I could feel happy again.
To my surprise, I felt energized after going out all the time. There were times when I’d go on multiple dates in one day. Yeah, it was like that. It was exhausting but I was intrigued and wanted to know more about them.
Cause we’re young and we’re reckless, we’ll take this way too far. It’ll leave you breathless…mmm…or with a nasty scar. Got a long list of ex-lovers, they’ll tell you I’m insane…
– Blank Space
Whenever I hear a particular Taylor Swift song, it reminds me of a certain men during various periods of our relationships. I have a lot of exes, luckily, Taylor has an impressive and extensive catalog of songs.
Just a few exes…
Esquire:
“I can’t find a pulse. My heart won’t start anymore for you cause you’re losing me.” – You’re Losing Me
“And you’re tossing out blame, drunk on this pain. Crossing out the good years and you’re cursing my name, wishing I stayed…look at how my tears ricochet.” – My Tears Ricochet
The Greek:
“And that’s the thing about illicit affairs and clanedestine meetings and stolen stares. They show their truth one single time but they lie, and they lie, and they lie a million times.” – Illicit Affairs
Beau Mec:
“We tell stories and you don’t know why I’m coming off a little shy, but I do. But you throw your head back laughing like a little kid. I think it’s strange that you think I’m funny, cause he never did. I’ve been spending the last eight months thinking all love ever does is break, and burn, and end. ” – Begin Again
“‘X’ marks the spot where we fell apart. He poisoned the well, every man for himself. I knew it from the first Old Fashioned, we were cursed. It hit you like a shotgun shot to the heart. You were drivin’ the getaway car, we were flying but we’d never get far. Don’t pretend it’s such a mystery, think about the place where you first met me. Ridin’ in a getaway car, there were sirens in the beat of your heart.” – Getaway Car
Patty Duke:
“This night is sparkling, don’t you let it go. I’m wonderstruck, blushing all the way home. I’ll spend forever wondering if you knew? That this night is flawless, don’t you let it go. I’m wonderstruck, dancing around all alone. I’ll spend forever wondering if you knew? I was enchanted to meet you. This is me praying that this was not the very first page, not where the story line ends. My thoughts will echo your name, until I see you again. These are the words I held back, as I was leaving too soon. I was enchanted to meet you. Please don’t be in love with someone else. Please don’t have somebody waiting on you.” – Enchanted
“Looking so innocent, I might believe you if I didn’t know. Could’ve loved you all my life if you hadn’t left me waiting in the cold. And you got your share of secrets and I’m tired of being last to know. And now you’re asking me to listen cause it’s worked each time before. You had me crawling for you, honey, and it never would’ve gone away, no. You used to shine so bright but I watched all of it fade.” – You’re Not Sorry
Foofie:
“And I fell from the pedestal, right down the rabbit hole. Long story short, it was a bad time. Pushed from the precipice, climbed right back up the cliff. Long story short, I survived.” – Long Story Short
“We are never, ever, ever getting back together. You go talk to your friends, talk to my friends, talk to me.” – We Are Never Getting Back Together
Big Bang:
“Come on, come on, don’t leave me like this. I thought I had you figured out. Something’s gone terribly wrong, you’re all I wanted.” – Haunted
“You’ll see me in hindsight, tangled up with you all night, burning it down. Someday when you leave me, I bet these memories follow you around.” – Wildest Dreams
Chris:
“Once upon a time, the planets and the fates and all the stars aligned. You and I ended up in the same room at the same time. And the touch of a hand lit the fuse of a chain reaction of countermoves to assess the equation of you. Checkmate, I couldn’t lose.” – Mastermind
“Today was a fairytale, I wore a dress. You wore a dark gray t-shirt. You told me I was pretty when I looked like a mess. Today was a fairytale. Time slows down whenever you’re around. But can you feel this magic in the it? It musta been the way you kissed me. Fell in love when I saw you standing there.” – Today Was a Fairytale
Miguel:
“Because I dropped your hand while dancing, left you out there standing crestfallen on the landing. Champagne problems. Your mom’s ring in your pocket, my picture in your wallet. Your heart was glass, I dropped it. Champagne problems.” – Champagne Problems
“I forgot that you sent me a clear message, taught me some hard lessons. I just forget what they were, it’s all just a blur. I forgot that you existed and I thought that it would kill me, but it didn’t, and it was so nice…so peaceful and quite. I forgot that you existed, I did. It isn’t hate, it’s just indifference. It isn’t love, it isn’t hate. It’s just indifference.” – I Forgot That You Existed
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